We have a date!

It’s set. Baby’s arrival date is set.

How terrified am I! Omg…. seriously the whole c-section thing is scaring me to death.

At least baby is big and growing well but I don’t know how much more I can take.

Not to mention how will I go back to work at 18weeks? My baby will be so small and probably not sleep… how will we survive it???

Anyone have some advice?

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You can’t turn back time

Some days I wish I could turn back time and not be pregnant. There would be no worries then. But there would also be less magic that a baby brings.

I’m terrified if the truth be told of what this will do to my current relationship with my eldest? Will it be fine or strained? Will she feel out of the family loop? I really hope not.

I love her so much and hope that we can all four of us learn how to live in a new family dynamic.

I also feel a little mournful for our current lifestyle and relationship.

I guess things change all the time and this is just another change on the ride of life.

Finances and babies

Gah! I am almost in trimester 3 and still trying to wrap my head around this baby and what we are doing!

Tbh I’m terrified.

Last week was up and down with my teenager, plus dealing with pregnancy symptoms! Ugh. Today I am tired and sore but at work…

How did you get through? What financial smarts did you put in place to help?

Unfortunately we get no government assistance so I keep doing budget after budget and really it just doesn’t compute…and makes me worry more…

I’m working up to 36weeks to get more pays in…and we are taking all the donations of stuff we can… but I just can’t see the light?

Is anyone else in the same position? What did you do?

Baby thoughts and fears

Still 27 weeks pregnant and having the strangest symptoms!

Latest is tingling and numbness in my face… I expected it in my legs and arms as its talked about in loads of forums… but my face is a wierd one….

Also heartburn and indigestion is my constant companion.

I guess I am now lucky that I have some pills for my morning sickness and can work more and be alive a bit more. The first 25weeks were tough, I’m not built for being pregnant.

The other stuff that worries me right now is A massive list!

  • Money- how do we support us while on maternity leave? And how do we save while we are waiting for this baby? I hate being at home all the time but feel inam stuck there due to our financial situation 😯😫
  • The house – it’s not baby ready! It’s so not done up or anything and we have no money to do it up right now🖓
  • The birth – I am having a cesarean and getting my tubes tied at the same time… but what if it all goes wrong or baby comes early?? What then? 😫😫😫
  • Having a baby and a teenager – how will my love and care be split over the two of them plus my partner? How do I make sure one is looked after and the other is not left out?
  • Going back to work – I’ll be back at work after 18weeks… how am I going to survive?
  • Health – what if baby isn’t healthy?

Anyone else been here? I’d love to know your thoughts?

Baby diary- 27weeks

I’m not sure how we are going to cope with a new baby in our already stretched lives.

I find it so hard to understand how my new life will work or fit together. I worry about finances and my almost adult daughter whose navigating her way through the last teenage years.

I wonder if this was a blessing or a mistake, if the timing could have been better. If only I’d met my fiance several years ago, things would look different.

But here I am. Third trimester looming and trying my hardest to hold it all together. It’s hard. I have no idea what I am doing or sometimes why I am doing it.

But I guess I just have to live through it and hold on for dear life.

Any sanity tips?

Pregnant and should be ecstatic right?

I’m pregnant, 23 weeks, it’s a rainbow baby and it’s lovely to be blessed with this gift…. but pregnancy and I do not go well together. The only time I have not been sick when pregnant is when I miscarried.

I am sick still, with my last baby I was sick for 9 months… I was hoping this would be better. It’s not.

I was on medication for it. The medication made me worse, anxiety, almost to the point of panic attacks, cloudy depression, tiredness, still vomiting, unable to eat, the chills and shakes. All of this landed me in hospital. Suffice to say I stopped taking that medication.

Prenatal vitamins cause me heart palpitations and to top all of this off the new medication I am on makes my stomach hurt and I’m still vomiting at least once a day.

I work full time and aside from.all the other time off I have had to have and the stressful prohect I have been removed from, today I have been at work today for about 30mins and am thinking about if I need to go home already as I was super pukey this morning and am now having dumb stomach pains again..sigh… when does it get better?

Does it get better? Am I the only pregnant lady who is not excited. I have no sparkle for this pregnancy, all I feel is sick, tired and overwhelmed.

And it just makes people at work etc. Ask me if I’m ok… I just wish I could say “actually, No, I’m not ok”….and lay it all out for them but instead I domt want to lay this at their door. Its not their fault. So I have a coffee and carry on.

Does anyone else feel this way? Or am I in a minority of those who hate pregnancy?