Positive vibe Thursday!

My life right now!

I am open to great things universe. Come at me! 

Don’t get time wrong I’m not silly enough to think I can just wait. But as this is the year of me…. let the blissful find my passion hunt begin!

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Back to work

I am so over this feeling like crap already!!!

I know I have to go through the grief but I’m fed up with crying and feeling isolated.

I cried today because after I got through my first day back at work ( that was full of random coments, not directed at me but definitely upsetting me and questions asking me how I was & if I felt better. Nice really to anyone who isn’t full of sadness…)

My ordered piece of art turned up…BENT! 😦
So I cried because right now as hard as it is I feel like this year the universe is out to get me.

In reality I know it’s not. But I am feeling very sad, very alone and a bit lost 😦

A strong person is not the one who doesn’t cry. A strong person is the one who cries & sheds tears for a moment, then gets up and fights again.

I feel like I keep doing or saying the wrong thing, like I can’t do anything right. I text my friends and thought I’d asked for support told them I’m lonely and they said nothing back.

Maybe because they dont know what to say. Maybe because I said to much or something offensive…? Or maybe they don’t want to know my sadness? I feel like I have done something wrong. Upset them… when all I did was say the truth 😢

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I brought my daughter a kitten thinking it might help but it’s like it really isn’t & the cat here already, well I’ve upset him too…

Yes this is a whiney blog but if I can’t say it here. Where can I say it?

I’m sad.
I’m lonely.
I wish my friends were here.
I wish my baby was here too.
I don’t feel strong. This is hard.

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Recovery day 1.

Sore, a little bit broken and tired. I know I’ll get there though. The tears are odd beasts, they come randomly.

I think I feel a bit lonely as only my partner in my immediate group can understand kind of how I feel, but then he can’t really either.

I’ll be ok though. We’ll get through. But right now this is all I can say to myself…well other people’s memes can help me…

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