Mindless chatter

16years ago I was learning to cope with a newborn girl…

2 years ago we lost a baby at 12 weeks….

Today I am 2 months away from having a baby boy….

How crazy life is!


Building excitement

I’m trying to build my baby excitement, we have been cutting back significantly, but i am still worried that we wont be abpe to afford things in our period of lowered income….so I’m not really buying anything for baby or me or my daughter at the moment.. sigh.

What did you do to feel excited about a new baby? That didn’t cost the earth?

You can’t turn back time

Some days I wish I could turn back time and not be pregnant. There would be no worries then. But there would also be less magic that a baby brings.

I’m terrified if the truth be told of what this will do to my current relationship with my eldest? Will it be fine or strained? Will she feel out of the family loop? I really hope not.

I love her so much and hope that we can all four of us learn how to live in a new family dynamic.

I also feel a little mournful for our current lifestyle and relationship.

I guess things change all the time and this is just another change on the ride of life.

Finances and babies

Gah! I am almost in trimester 3 and still trying to wrap my head around this baby and what we are doing!

Tbh I’m terrified.

Last week was up and down with my teenager, plus dealing with pregnancy symptoms! Ugh. Today I am tired and sore but at work…

How did you get through? What financial smarts did you put in place to help?

Unfortunately we get no government assistance so I keep doing budget after budget and really it just doesn’t compute…and makes me worry more…

I’m working up to 36weeks to get more pays in…and we are taking all the donations of stuff we can… but I just can’t see the light?

Is anyone else in the same position? What did you do?

Baby thoughts and fears

Still 27 weeks pregnant and having the strangest symptoms!

Latest is tingling and numbness in my face… I expected it in my legs and arms as its talked about in loads of forums… but my face is a wierd one….

Also heartburn and indigestion is my constant companion.

I guess I am now lucky that I have some pills for my morning sickness and can work more and be alive a bit more. The first 25weeks were tough, I’m not built for being pregnant.

The other stuff that worries me right now is A massive list!

  • Money- how do we support us while on maternity leave? And how do we save while we are waiting for this baby? I hate being at home all the time but feel inam stuck there due to our financial situation 😯😫
  • The house – it’s not baby ready! It’s so not done up or anything and we have no money to do it up right now🖓
  • The birth – I am having a cesarean and getting my tubes tied at the same time… but what if it all goes wrong or baby comes early?? What then? 😫😫😫
  • Having a baby and a teenager – how will my love and care be split over the two of them plus my partner? How do I make sure one is looked after and the other is not left out?
  • Going back to work – I’ll be back at work after 18weeks… how am I going to survive?
  • Health – what if baby isn’t healthy?

Anyone else been here? I’d love to know your thoughts?

Baby diary- 27weeks

I’m not sure how we are going to cope with a new baby in our already stretched lives.

I find it so hard to understand how my new life will work or fit together. I worry about finances and my almost adult daughter whose navigating her way through the last teenage years.

I wonder if this was a blessing or a mistake, if the timing could have been better. If only I’d met my fiance several years ago, things would look different.

But here I am. Third trimester looming and trying my hardest to hold it all together. It’s hard. I have no idea what I am doing or sometimes why I am doing it.

But I guess I just have to live through it and hold on for dear life.

Any sanity tips?