I’m due 6 months off

Life is a funny beast, you get through one hard thing and then you take a breath, and as soon as you turn around there is a new issue in your face.  A bigger one a harder one, a new lesson. Today’s lesson was teens in trouble.

I found a note form my daughter and she was in trouble, I missed it. I don’t know how I missed it, but I missed it. There are scars on her legs to show me I missed it. There are notes in her phone to tell me I missed it and there were tears on my cheeks to let me feel that I missed it. She is just so beautiful and amazing that I don’t even understand why she is so down, but she is, there was something wrong and we raised it with everyone we could, talked about it with everyone we trusted to get ideas and scenarios to help.


Too add insult to injury, we went to a takeaway place today to get some food (bad I know, not healthy at all but today, to be honest, I really didn’t care) and the handle fell off and locked me in… yip… I laughed, my partner got me out and to be honest it’s a funny story, a small positive laugh in a somewhat gloomy day.

Then she came home from school and we talked about it, this was hard. So hard, but it needed to happen. It was important to happen. Explanations were said, thoughts came out, more discussions were had, the air was cleared and I think,  I HOPE we got through to her and hey it can’t rain all the time.

This is the latest stressful thing in my life, I am looking forward to the gym tomorrow  night and maybe a walk tonight or in the morning to breath in some air, to calm my brain and dry my eyes, and revitalize.

I am also trying a session with an acupuncturist/eastern medicine man at the end of the week, to see if this helps me remove the stress (or at least some stress) from my life, and allow me to breath.


What do you do to help with stressful times? any recommendations greatly received!



The good, the bad and the ridiculous.


Well I went to see my PT for the first time, we met, we chatted, he made me stretch, squat and sit, and we decided that my once injured calf was still in a bad condition. Hence being unable to squat without my toes coming off the ground, and being unable to sit on my legs with my knees bent.

I also had a super low blood pressure (something like 79/49) and he told me I could possibly double it and still be fine, which considering the stress I have been feeling with my mum, daughter  (a teenager! if you have one you will know what I mean) and relationship of late, is very surprising!

Anyway I am getting there with all of these things, one foot in front of the other, one step at a time. I have to keep remembering that I am blessed to have my life and these people in it. Appreciate the lessons and all that!


Anyway back to the calf – this does not bode well for events or the hike I want to do in spring across the Tongariro Crossing, with loads of shingle and some steep climbs! but Thankfully my PT did give me an explanation for why I have put on so much weight, he thinks I was at a steady level of fitness, then I got a peak level, got injured and then went down below my original state! I am guessing this means I am going to have to push myself very hard here, but I am ready. I also suspect it is stress related, and how do you beat stress? by exercise! (I also am trying my best to eat well and have some B vitamins to help)

Another session tonight for me, the first real one! here’s hoping I don’t look like an Elephant stuffed into a sausage casing!! and can do what he expects!

I am a bit worried.. but I guess I’ll man up and go, it has got to be good for me, surely!